If Only

If only I knew that this is how it all goes If only I knew that all those words mean nothing If only all those things weren’t happening If only I could recognize the truth I would run, and run, and not fly like I used to I would carry all the feelings, to the ocean of my stupidness I would not let those things happen I wouldn’t let you do all the things If only I’m not that dumb If only I’m listening to my own voice If only I wasn’t touched with those games If only prefering my brain than heart is my only choice I shouldn’t have to hide the truth I shouldn’t have to impress I shouldn’t have to lie I shouldn’t have to beg for nothing If only we never met If only you decided not to know me If only I didn’t answer If only I didn’t say yes I would never hope for surprises I would never ask for presents I would never expect something sweet I would not regret all the things, indeed I’m not going to blame But if...