Brigitta Kalina

source : history.com I like the idea of having a fireplace inside your apartment. It feels so warm especially in the day like this. Where the snow starts falling, the air is getting colder, and when a thick jacket doesn’t help you at all. Well, I wish I had one but in we are prohibited to have (even mini) fireplace in my apartment. I always imagine if only I had a mini fireplace inside my apartment, I would have already decorated it with some socks like what I did back then in Australia. I would also put my christmas tree near it and then put a small paper above my mini christmas tree. I would like to write all my wishes in that small paper like what I used to do when I was little. I remember Mom and Dad told me few things about Santa Claus, and I like it. But yeah, time flies, I’m getting older, and here I am sitting near my room’s window seeing snowflakes start to fall in Thanksgiving Day.               ...

"Apeirophobia is a fear of infinity or eternity." - Wikipedia. I remember I was only an elementary school student at that time. I went to Yogyakarta with my big family, and it felt like a long journey. It was on the traffic roundabout when suddenly I felt a bizzare thing. I didn't know exactly why, I didn't know exactly how, but it just happened to me. I was looking at my car's window at that time. Thinking about one question I never thought :  When will the world end? I remember the sweat running through my face. My chest was crowded, it was like having an asthma. I felt so dizzy because I found myself arguing in my own brain. I keep on thinking and thinking. I was scared, I was terrified, I was afraid, and I didn't know exactly why.  When will the world end? When will everything is going to end? Will it recur over and over and it will never end? Oh my God. Even right now, I remember how it felt in that time. I even cried and ask my parent...

If only I knew that this is how it all goes If only I knew that all those words mean nothing If only all those things weren’t happening If only I could recognize the truth I would run, and run, and not fly like I used to I would carry all the feelings, to the ocean of my stupidness I would not let those things happen I wouldn’t let you do all the things If only I’m not that dumb If only I’m listening to my own voice If only  I wasn’t touched with those games If only prefering my brain than heart is my only choice I shouldn’t have to hide the truth I shouldn’t have to impress I shouldn’t have to lie I shouldn’t have to beg for nothing If only we never met If only you decided not to know me If only I didn’t answer If only I didn’t say yes I would never hope for surprises I would never ask for presents I would never expect something sweet I would not regret all the things, indeed  I’m not going to blame But if...

“Diminishing returns is the decrease in the marginal output of a production process as the amount of a single factor of production is incrementally increased, while the amounts of all other factors of production stay constant.” – Wikipedia.                 I have to confess that I’m not good at Economy, nor at memorizing theories. But here is the thing, I prefer understand than memorizing things. And usually, it is easier for me to understand or even memorize unique thing or thing that I experience in the real life because I’ve already lived it and do or see those things million times. In this case, like what I said before, I’m not good at Economy, even it’s hard for me to understand those theories that my teacher and books had said. Except for one thing..                 ... yes, except for one thing.     ...

                I’m not good at making metaphores, I’m only good at saying things I do really feel.                 I’m not good at being an actrees or those acting-like person, I’m only good at hiding feeling.                 And I will not try to.                 Adapting is something that you couldn’t avoid when you have new surroundings, new friends, new people, or even new class. I’m not saying that I’m good at adapting with new things, the fact is that I always feel nervous everytime I face people I’m not intended to.                 “Well it’s just a beginning,” I thought. I don’t think that I have to explain it clearly about how we me...

So, I just don't know what to do and I decided to write something soo... yes. Dunno but I'm in a mood to write in bahasa, okay thennnn HAII SEMUANYAAAA Jadi ceritanya tadi aku buka" file blog lama, liat tulisan-tulisan yang dibuat waktu dulu awal-awal aku masih punya blog. Betapa menye-menye nya, betapa absurdnya, tapi entahlah, that's all a true feeling of mine. Aku juga sempet buka tulisan blogku dibagian Music Review or that kind of thing yang udah lama banget aku nggak nulis tentang itu. I know, I know I should've spare some of my time to write some things, but yes, namanya juga gaada ide sama gatau mau nulis apa, jadi yaudah deh. Kalian tau spotify kan? Yas! Aplikasi streaming musik yang lagi hits banget dan banyak digandrungi orang-orang, and I'm included. Aku suka spotify karena lagu-lagunya lengkap banget, lebih lengkap dari aplikasi streaming musik lainnya. Emang sih, spotify belum lama masuk ke Indonesia, tapi spotify lengkap banget lagu-lagun...

Tuesday, March 21st 2017 So, how are you guys doing lol. I know it's been like 1 year or more since I wrote my last 'The Writer's Diary', and I know that I'm a kind of proscratinator on writing things, and that's what makes me haven't continued 2016 Christmas Countdown lol so sorry *wanna put a crying laugh emo but I don't have it on my laptop* Oh by the way there's some new preparation and some additions on blogger so we have like new themes and also symbols! Yeay, I found that emo!!😂😂😂 Well, it's been a really long time until I know nothing about some new features here loll😅 Pardon my unexistence for I don't even know how long it is, and it all also happened because of the things I said on the older post. I love writing, but I don't know why I have no enough time or sometimes when I have enough time to write, I just have no idea what to write. Classic things, I know. But honestly, it's the truth. You know guys, I...